Wish I could leave you, my love, but my heart is a mess.
How can something evoke pain and tranquility at the same time? Often described as his breakthrough song, “cold/mess” is a breathtaking, soulful and mesmerizing composition by Prateek Kuhad. One can discern the artistry behind the song from the fact that it made it to the 2019 Playlis
t of Mr. Barack Obama, the iconic Former President of the United States.
The video, with Kuhad's soulful voice, takes you on an emotional ride. The ascending tune brings you in touch with all your emotions. The couple explores the sentiments of comfort and intimacy in a relationship. They share a kiss under the water, which at first, looks powerfully pleasing. However, the song leads to a darker side of their relationship. They pull each other down under the water, just to be together. They keep coming back to each other, no matter how much they suffocate each other, until they finally scream under the same water where they initially kissed. “Wish I could leave you, my love, but my heart is a mess” speaks volumes of the pain of a lover. It brings to light the toxicity in their relationship. It emanates pain and leaves your heart aching. Yet “My days they begin with your name and nights end with your breath” comforts you. It makes you believe in their love, no matter how much it hurts them.
The conversation which they share at the beginning marks the dynamics of their relationship.
“You think this is a good idea?”
“What do you consider a good idea?”
“Lemon tarts”
“I don't like lemons.”
“I don't like tarts. Just the idea of it.”
“Maybe you're right. Maybe it's not a good idea.”
Even though they knew it in their heart that it's not a good idea, they end up exploring it. Maybe that is love, the adrenaline rush you feel, the need to be wrapped around in each other's arms constantly, the desire to call each other their own, the jealousy and insecurity that comes with it until all that is left is suffocation. It is a mess after all. A cold mess.